Scaling mountains, part 2
So after I sent in that last post, I was fishing for something inspirational to read. One of the blogs I stalk has a bunch of that on it, and this quote which was posted jumped out at me, like the perfect solution to my problem.
(Jesus:) There are many ways that I work in My children’s lives to help them to become weak and dependent on Me. But what I want My children to understand is that I allow these things to happen because I love them. I love each and every one, individually. Even the very hairs of their head are numbered. So all the events that happen in their lives—the different breakings and humblings, the different experiences I put them through, the different situations I place them in—these things all come from My hand and are a part of My plan. I allow them to happen because I love them and I wish to draw them close to Me.
If My children are proud and strong in themselves and feel capable in their own flesh, then they are distant from Me, and I must allow difficulties to happen to help get rid of pride, to help them see and understand that they can’t do it in the arm of the flesh, and to help them to truly become weak in themselves. Once they are, then I can pour in My Spirit and give them My strength.
I do feel that this has been happening with me these last 8 months or so that I’ve been back in Manila–this smashing process, this weak state, and the overall feeling of having been given burdens that are simply breaking me up. There have been so many difficulties, that I can’t even argue that I’m strong enough to deal with them. I know I’m not, and it’s only by HIS Grace and mercy that I can still face the obstacles.
Sometimes, in the thick of life’s difficulties, we forget that–His immeasurable love for us. And we look at everything that is sent our way as strokes of pain. I pray I can get through this trying time, look back, and have awesome stories to tell about what HIS strength did for me.